What Happened When I Started Feeling Everything..

After I stopped trying to fix myself, I did something insane. I started sitting, feeling, and observing whatever was already there. Yes, it is very difficult to say put, at times very boring.

But there I was, sitting with the good, the bad, the beautiful, the ugly. All of it.

Maybe that's the actual point of life, to feel deeply, the happiness AND the sourness.

I haven't "fixed" anything in weeks. And I feel better.

I'm micromanaging less, allowing more. I found my feminine energy again - turns out she just wanted to feel it all without changing it.

Then something started to actually change. Maybe nothing externally, but it feels different. It feels like I'm where I'm supposed to be. I started to feel better, calmer, clearer, less resentful. I started to feel more present and could pull my attention into the moments that I so desperately wanted to enjoy, like my kids laughter and playing.

Here's what I realized: all the things I wanted to feel - joy, peace, connection - they were underneath all the stuff I was trying to fix instead of feel.

To feel the good things in life, like your kid's laughter or your partner's tenderness, you also have to feel the icky stuff. The disappointment. The anger. The sadness.

It's all life force. And all it really wants is to be felt and acknowledged.

You don't have to transform it. You don't have to make it mean something. You just have to let it move through you.