Energy Update May 2026
We are about to move past another threshold yet again. The energy this year has felt like endless waves asking us to meet ourselves in a new way. Every time we think we have it figured out, or we have a breakthrough, another wave comes to remind us that the work is a spiral and it has no end. I truly believe that life is the quality of the questions you ask yourself and the practices you consistently engage with that keep your head on straight and your feet on the ground. The practices that keep you close to yourself and remind you of who you are and what you are meant to be doing here in this lifetime.
Right now, I feel that the work is very simple. It is to deeply recognize that we are not broken and we need to stop looking for more reasons to “heal” ourselves. I feel like the work is more about allowing and accepting that the human condition means that we will feel extremes of joy and grief, and everything in between. And if we get really curious enough, we can go through our emotions as little portals to parts of ourselves that have been forgotten and reclaim them with a little compassion and kindness.
I have recently been practicing the RAIN of self-compassion meditation by Tara Brach, and at the bottom of my frustration and sadness are deep emotions like rage, grief, shame, and fear. And if I look even further than that, I find a past version of myself trying to make sense of being human and in relationship to others. She is mostly confused and looking for someone to guide her through. So, I take the opportunity to pull her in and nourish her in a way she really needs. The insight I have is that, for the most part, the fear I feel before I go into the feeling is way worse than going into the feeling itself. Moreover, it is never as deep as I fear it is. I always feel that I am somehow deeply flawed, but really I am human. I simply want to be recognized and loved. Instead of looking outward and waiting for the world to do that for me, I am doing it for myself, and it has given me a peace of mind I didn’t know I was capable of.
As a result, I really do have more patience and more perspective. I can see others more clearly, and I can meet myself with a bit more compassion and less impatience. I think that’s a huge win. It might not be super sexy in terms of the big goals we set for ourselves, but maybe we have been misguided. Maybe there is something to contemplate and add some goals about knowing ourselves, loving ourselves, and having a peace of mind and body that carries out into our relationships and how we govern ourselves in the world.
